maddiefrog

Today started out great! I really mean it. I woke up and was for some reason really energetic.I even walked to school, which in retrospect is a tad weird because I never walk to school on a Friday but I did. Today was a casual clothes day so that was interesting because it took me about 20 minutes to find something warm enough to wear, and even then it was cold.
Biology was my first class and after a plant pop quiz we started to discuss the digestive system. First off ingestion, where we wrote about 2 sentences of theory and then counted the teeth of different animals and worked out what their diets were in term of carnivore, omnivore or herbivore... Somewhere in between there the class brought up cow tipping :/ Anyway we get to do dissections next week which I'm really looking forward to.
Recess came and went, with me claiming to be Switzerland because two friends are in the middle of something complicated and yeah, it's kind of a long story.
Italian time came. Ah Italian, what fun. Which it actually was even though we were doing the future tense and yeah... Anyway that finished and so came lunch where dnm time occurred with me and a couple of friends talking about their problems with the guys in their life. And to be honest some men are just urghhh, I'm sure it's the same with some women but the guy today was just urgh. Anyway I get to lit feeling mellow and tired, and low and behold I find that my teacher isn't there and the friend that has become distant lately seems to be down. And of course I care that they appear upset (frustrated that I care) so I ask if they are okay and what not. and yes they appear okay but then they disappear for all of the lesson while I do my work and try not to worry that they are off crying because something happened. ARGH WHY DO I CARE!!! :@ They have barely spoken to me in about a month and a half and yet I still want to know if they are okay. Class finishes and I walk home. YAY I actually managed to walk home :) After sending a text to that person and getting no reply. And now I sit here typing this thinking why in the hell did I bother even texting them and just urghh.
Great morning turned sour afternoon...

Ah a cluttered mind, what a sad sight. Today I have one big cluttered mind and have no way to describe what is happening up in that brain of mine...
Let me start by saying that toady is the day before my house inspection and the house is a bomb zone which means that I will practically cleaning all day. OH WHAT FUN!! I literally don't know where to start and its just plain frustrating. To make matters worse, my sister has decided to escape for the day and go out with her boyfriend. Rolls eyes. It's not like if she was home she would actually do anything to help anyway but still now I will have to do twice as much as I would have to do... urghh sorry but it's really frustrating me.
Along with that I see that two of my friends are having problems I don't really know what do or whether I should do anything at all. I'm just worried that will end up becoming distant with each other and that would suck because they are besties but I'm going to let them sort that out for themselves and try and be there for the both of them.
Another thing on my mind is that I have this friend that used to consider me one of there best friends and we used to talk to each other about stuff. They helped me deal with stuff that happened earlier in the year and I thought I helped them though a tough period in their life. But now I'm not so sure what is going on. They have become distant and we barely even talk to each other which I would be fine with except I have half my classes with them and just urghh. I don't whether I'm supposed to really talk to them or what is going on. Personally I'm not really hurt by any of that stuff because why should I waste my time on them if they aren't even going to try. I just want to know what happened and if it's my fault that we became distant. I mean I have tried talking to them more but the conversation now just stops where as before it was easy to keep going and going. I guess we just grew apart and I just have to stop over thinking it that much.
Oh and I feel like suddenly I'm failing at everything I do. Which isn't really helping my school work and everything else. It really started with this media task that we were given a while ago and I feel like I totally bombed out on that and let everyone in my group down because I wasn't good enough... Now we are doing another project and I'm with a different group but my old group kind of merged together and yeah their group is doing alot better than mine or so I feel. And everytime I walk into that classroom I feel interior to that group and it didn't help that yesterday that part of that group came over and gloated about what shows that they got in the task. At first I was like whatever because I thought it didn't matter because it was whatever... but them my friend from above came and like looked at our list of shows and was like interesting and I was like whatever. But then I started thinking about it and it just mad me pissed, which is stupid I know but I can't help it. And now I'm like mass stressing about my dance solos and shit and just argh.
I really just want the year to be over already...

We had to write a dialogue scene for my Film subject and this is the one that I did. I really enjoyed writing it and it made me realise that I wouldn't mind doing this for a job but you know that's far off into the distance. Anyway enough of my babbling, here's my script.

It's about a girl in high school that has lost her father to cancer and she's become an introvert and hasn't really gotten over his death. And so she ends up at the park where her dad used to take her to and she has an imaginary conversation with her younger self.

EXT.Park Swing Set-Day.
FADE IN.
Emma sits down on the swing. She starts swinging, looking up at the sky. Young Emma slowly fades in to appear beside Emma. Young Emma starts swinging as well.
Young Emma
(Energetic)
I like the sky. I like how blue it is. I can almost touch it... see!
Young Emma tries to touch the sky by swinging higher and higher with her hand outstretched. Young Emma gives up and keeps swinging.
YOUNG EMMA
One day I'll touch the sky.
Emma
Mmm, it's too far away to touch
YOUNG EMMA
No it's not!
Young Emma tries to touch the sky again.
YOUNG EMMA
I'm almost there.
Emma:
How's papa?
YOUNG EMMA
Wouldn't you know?
Emma stops swinging and looks over at her younger self. Emma sighs.
EMMA
How is he?
YOUNG EMMA
He's good as he always is. Papa stays at home now.
EMMA
Is he happy?
YOUNG EMMA
Of course he is!
EMMA
Does he play with you a lot?
YOUNG EMMA
Yeaahh! He does. Sometimes though he will just sit and watch me, smiling.
Young Emma smiles and swings happily. Emma just swings and swings not looking at Young Emma. Young Emma's smile falters.
YOUNG EMMA
(sad)
Papa is sick, isn't he?
EMMA
Yeah. Yeah he is.
Emma and Young Emma continue to swing and swing. Slowly Young Emma disappears. Emma is left swinging alone on the swing.
FADE OUT.